A little background would help.

For the past year and a half, my husband and I have been trying to conceive. Scary that I'm putting that out here like this, but it's something that I've been thinking about doing for a while. I've read so many stories about this subject so I figured I'd be one of them to put it out here for people to read. Why, I'm not really sure. Perhaps it'll serve as a form of therapy for me. I know the wonderful and supportive people around me have to be getting tired of hearing the same things over and over from me. This topic, however, has consumed my life. 

For the first 13 months of trying, my husband and I pretty much tried on our own with the exception of using Clomid to induce ovulation. Finally, after speaking with someone from work, we decided to it was time to see a fertility specialist. I don't know why I was so hesitant at first. I think maybe I didn't want to hear that there was something wrong with either of us... that it meant admitting we couldn't do something on our own. If there's one thing I can't stand it's feeling like a failure... feeling like I CAN'T do something.  We knew in our hearts, though, that this was the right decision and it was definitely time to be a little more proactive.

Upon leaving the first meeting with the fertility doctor, I knew that I had PCOS (polycystic ovarian syndrome) and that he had full confidence that I would be pregnant in no time. The first month consisted of a lot of blood work and ultrasounds. Everything looked great until he did the saline ultrasound and realized that I had polyps in my uterus. Not too big of a deal... nothing life threatening or even health threatening really, except it would be nearly impossible to get pregnant with them in there. So, we scheduled a hysteroscopy which actually turned out to be a full D&C.

After finally healing from the surgery, we were ready to do our first insemination! My husband and I were so excited and felt GREAT about everything. The 2ww (two week wait) was like torture. Negative test after negative tests until finally we were positive that I was NOT pregnant. The first insemination didn't work.

This was all within the past few months and the negative tests were within the past few days. I don't know exactly what I intend for this blog. It won't all be about our journey to having a baby. We'll see where this road takes me...