Monday, June 4, 2012

Finally


Sorry that it’s been so long. We’ve been so busy around here and quite distracted!
May 5th was the transfer. On May 10th, I left my sister’s house to go grocery shopping and couldn’t resist picking up those damn tests. I knew it was way too early to test (5 days past transfer), but I told myself I would at least wait until the next morning to start my testing. Early testers are like addicts, though. As soon as I got home, I put the groceries away and tore open the test package. Seconds after peeing on the stick, I looked at it and saw nothing. I cursed myself for being so stupid and impatient and went into my room to change out of my work clothes. As I was getting dressed, I (of course) said to myself, “well, I didn’t wait the full 3 minutes or anything”. Back I went into the bathroom… to get the biggest shock of my life.
As I picked up the stick and held it up, I saw the faintest line you could probably detect on a pregnancy test, but, it was there. I immediately started crying and yelling, “oh my god, oh my god” over and over again. I stood there in my bathroom with one hand on my mouth and the other on my pregnancy test. My first ever POSITIVE pregnancy test!!!!!!!!!!!

When I calmed myself down a little, I called my sister. I tried to stay calm, but as soon as I started explaining that I saw a line, I lost it again. Within seconds she was on her way over. When we hung up I was so tempted to call her back and say something like, “nevermind, I don’t know what I’m talking about”. The denial was creeping in. As soon as she arrived she looked at the test and immediately saw the faint line. I wasn’t crazy. I was pregnant. I AM PREGNANT.

She stayed over for a while until it was time for my husband to come home. I was in denial. Something kept nagging at me and telling me that it wasn’t right. I kept thinking that the next morning I’d test and nothing would be there. It was surreal and incredible and I wish I could’ve allowed myself to enjoy it even more, but my brain wouldn’t allow that. My brain had been so used to getting NEGATIVES and BAD news. I didn’t know how to accept it.

That night, I told Dennis almost as soon as he got home. While he was just as thrilled and excited, he experienced some of the same feelings I was feeling. We just didn’t know how to accept it.

My beta test wasn’t supposed to be until the following Monday, but I managed to get it changed to Friday so I could get some numbers! When I went for the test, the lab tech told me that they wanted the number to be around 50. After hours of anticipation, we received the call that our number was already at 143!!! Our next test was 360 and the one after that was 813. Great numbers. 

The night after my first home pregnancy test, my sister, her husband, and my nephew went to have dinner at my mom’s. My sister and I made a plan that while they were eating dinner, Dennis and I would sneak in and surprise them with the news. So, while they were at the dining room table, Dennis and I came in with a bottle of champagne. I decorated the bottle with a label that said “FINALLY” and pink and blue ribbons. 



Needless to say, they were not only surprised, but ecstatic. That day is a day I’ll remember for the rest of my life.

More blogs to come… as many of you know we had another surprise shortly after the pregnancy news. As for now, I’m going to relax and soak in the fact that I just wrote my blog post about finding out I was pregnant. Our dreams are coming true

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