Saturday, March 10, 2012

Embryos


Recovery from the egg retrieval wasn’t exactly what I’d anticipated. Yesterday, I had to leave work early because I couldn’t sit or stand any longer. I NEEDED to get home to get into bed. I called my nurse to make sure I wasn’t experiencing OHSS (which I’m convinced I had a mild case of), but she said it didn’t sound like that. I thought it was strange that she said that since I was experiencing more than one of the symptoms. She did say that if it got worse that I should call. I spent the night at home and was in bed by 9pm (exciting Friday night for the Sheppards!). I do, however, feel much better today. I’m still having some pain… especially when I’m sitting or walking, but it’s much, much better.

Onto the good news! The IVF center called me yesterday to tell me that of the 7 eggs that fertilized, 6 of them were already hatching on their own and the 7th wasn’t far behind! This is great news because they won’t have to do “assisted hatching”. Our little embryos are strong and doing just fine on their own. They’re doing so well that we’re going to do a Day 5 transfer. My doctor told me that Day 5 transfers are the best because it means the embryos are strong and it’s a more natural time in my body to accept the embryos. Dennis and I are both very excited for all of our good news and can’t wait for Monday (transfer day)!

When we signed all of our paperwork, we signed off on the fact that we didn’t want any more than 2 embryos implanted. We’re hoping that come Monday , our embryos will still be strong enough that we’ll only have to put one in. While the idea of multiples is nice, it's also absolutely terrifying. 
I’m having a strange guilty feeling about the embryos that do not get selected to be our potential baby. I feel like I want to take care of all of them. None of them will be discarded, no matter what. But, I still feel weird about it all. Someone else is choosing the embryo that may become our child. What if they pick #4? Why that one instead of the others? Fate, I suppose. Fate, I believe.  I like the way Dennis put it when I told him about my guilty feeling. He said that some of them may be our future babies and the rest of them may help save lives or create lives. All of our little embryos have a special place in this world. We are so proud of them already…

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